friends

When it comes to friends.....
I don't think I have much to complain about.
I wouldn't say I have a huge number of friends like some people I know.
I do have a small group of friends at school and at church.
We are very close and we are the best of friends.
I feel perfectly comfortable around them.
I always feel like I can lower my guard and be completely myself.
Whenever I'm with them, I feel completely at ease.
But the last few years or so, I feel like things are different.
And I don't think it's my friends that are different.
Maybe I'm the one that's different.
Or maybe it's not that I've become different in some way.

It's been forever since I've been to mailfriends. I mean forever. Those that I made friends with a year ago probably forgot about me. Then again, who could blame them?

I'm just moved to a new city with a new job and a new life. I'm now three hours drive away from my family, and I miss them terribly. However, I'm not going to return. There's nothing for me down there. All the jobs are taken. Those that aren't pay little, and I have student loans that I'm repaying. So I moved. Moved to a place where people are ruder, pushy, and just plain mean. I have yet to find friends in my area, and those at my work are keeping a fair distance from me as if I'm an alien from another galaxy.